Sunday, August 28, 2011

And Then...

I'm exhausted. Not only physically, but emotionally and mentally as well.
It didn't take much...just another family member passing away, a family that's up in the air, moving my family, and a situation that required me to remove my family from home for about a week or so. I've been on the road, back home, cleaning & tidying, oraganizing what little we kept out of storage for the family, and spending (what feels like) an immense amount of time with my family.
While the majority of the issues that were prioritized as first have now passed us by, we're still looking forward to a 50th Birthday Bash for my mummie, and back-to-school for the kids. During such time we'll be finding the home the boys had wanted and moving them in.
I've been tagging along with family here there and everywhere, and kind of feel like a third wheel, because I keep thinking to myself "I really wish I could just nap in a quiet room".
Our house A/C unit broke during the only warm spell we've had all summer, our house is overflowing with people, have been having plumbing issues due to some strange material being flushed that really has no place there, and are having issues keeping our fridge/pantry stocked because the kids keep rooting whenever they feel peckish.
We've attended a funeral (the kids did great BTW), visited beaches galore, 4x4-ed, hiked, swam, gamed all night, gone to bed early, watched movies til the wee hours of the morn, and ate our way through the Midnight Munchies.
I've seen hide nor hair of any of my friends since before my last post, because I've been consumed.
I got a new tattoo (a Spotted Eagle feather on my neck ---->)and I've upgraded my phone to a Blackberry (with a 3yr contract renewel *rolls eyes*). My old phone was 2 years old, and starting to act funny whenever I asked it to work for me.
I've been enjoying playing with the different features on it, and discovering what I've been missing out on (though I can't see much difference).
My kids are happy and romping round, bouncing from home tohome with the understanding that they're free to roam and play at will.
Stress always feels on the horizon, as I've been conversing a bit with Mr. It's difficult to put my feelings aside sometimes, to reach the issue at hand. It's difficult to hold on to what I've discovered about myself since I've left, and that scares me. I'm at risk of being swallowed whole and being lost without any way to find my way back.
I, quite honestly, have not been alone in a while. Well, that's a lite, I drove north to grab my Gramma for the funeral all by myself...
Anyhow, I'm alive, overwhelmed, busy as all get out, and ready.

3 thoughtful remarks:

Osbasso said...

Glad I didn't read anything here terribly negative. Chin up and keep looking ahead!

Osbasso said...

Love the tattoo, too!

Brandy said...

I love your tattoo. I find myself still feeling that way even though it's been 3 years since my Grandma (more like my mother) passed away.