Friday, July 15, 2011

Netflix Addiction

I've been trying to move. It's not working so well.
My bed has my permanent imprint, my laptop has been set to Netflix for 3 days now, and I've watched everything under the sun. Under the moon too.
My sleeping schedule is all messed up. I can't remember to eat, and I'm confused when my body sends me signals that I'm hungry.
I think it's safe to say that I need to make some phone calls today.
We had the conversatin with the kids. I had to cut my time with them shorter by a day. I simply couldn't
tolerate the stress. I know they were disappointed. I feel like I keep hitting setbacks. I'm wondering when this feeling will end. The feeling that I have that says life would be so much better if I weren't in it. All these waiting lists and "we'll call you back" feel just like a slap in the face. It may be that I need a pick-me-up. It may be that I just need someone to care. It may be that I'm just lonely. It may be a lot of things, but I'm feeling like no one wants to help me out here. Maybe I'm just feeling sorry for myself, maybe I'm just surviving the best way I know how.

1 thoughtful remarks:

MomInLaw said...

You are worth the effort you are putting forth. The strong woman inside you will emerge. Change often brings anxiety, confusion, disappointment, and stress. You will overcome the hurdles and barriers, which will make your victory that much more precious to you. I do care about you Amber and love you very much.