Holy Bears Batman!

It's been a hectic, and short week.
Just in the past two days, I've seen a grand total of 6 bears in my area. They're big, fat, and huge!
I guess with all of mild weather we've had, they must've been out earlier and have consequently eaten massive amounts. They are now the size they would normally be by the end of summer...so I can only imagine how big they will be by the end of summer!
MIL is visiting, and we had a nice day today. We headed into town to catch the local Farmer's Market, and to see what else we could catch in the flea markets & garage sales that were happening this weekend. We didn't walk away with much from those, which was rather surprising.
D is amassing himself quite a collection of flowers. Today he made the decision to start collecting purple flowers. Should be interesting. He started out with a geranium, but I don't think he knew it would be red, so he picked out some purple flowered plants at the Farmer's Market, and has decided he's like to keep them for himself.
While this week was a challenge and struggle for me to get through, I made it.
H is starting Daycare on Monday. I'm looking forward to it. I'll get to take him to work with me, and actually spend an entire day with him. I've been feeling rather put out that there is another person who is receiving all of that glorious affection that H showers down of late, so I'm really looking forward to this new turn of events.
There is so much that's going on that I wish I could blog about, but since I know it would hurt those whom I happen to be thinking about, the thoughts are best kept to myself.
I feel like people can see how sad I am. I keep seeing this person in the mirror when I walk by it, and I keep wondering what happened to her smile. It feel like I don't do it nearly as often as I have at times.
I've made a compromise, and am trying my best to stick to my end of the deal. I struggle with it each day, but I figure that if I make it through unscathed that I will be stronger for it...right? If I can't give a little, what else is there?
I feel like I'm in a constant state of waiting. Eventually whatever it is that I am waiting for will arrive.
How I have any hope left after looking that statement is beyond me. Maybe it's a survivor thing...