Adverse Side Effects

I'm truly ill.
Not in the sense that I'm not able to leave my bed, but in the heart.
I'm anxiety ridden. My heart pounds so loud whenever thoughts push their way into my head. My stomache won't accept nutrients, I can't stand to smell food cause it makes everything unappealing. I can't sleep, I can't stay awake.
My kids deserve a better mother than this thing that is before them who's too consumed to really give 100%.